Feeling about suicide

I'm really sorry I went through the same with my grandpa a few months ago and my friend just last year. My friend Bud was the coolest guy ever and you would never think he could do it. Found out from his mom that his wife had been telling him she was taking his kids and he would never see them again. I was really mad at first but now I'm just sad about it all. Its never the right thing to do but you might not ever know what was going on in his head. My grandpa left a note that he didn't want to end up in a home and was tiered of being a burden on his wife. They all have their own reasons, depression is one heck of a battle and some of us can't handle it. I'll pray for you and the family.