Feeling about suicide

Ok, I guess I'm not done yet. Mental illness is a screw up of brain chemistry. It's not a matter of choice. It's no different than cancer or any other illness. The difference is the general public thinks you can "think" or "feel" mental illness away. Yes, there is cognitave therapy that works to an extent. Basically, you feel what you think. I am a big beliver in it. It does work..........as long as your brain allows you to think properly. Cognitive therapy DOES NOT help true mental illness. I have the best two friends in the world. My mom and dad love me to no end. When depression hits you, none of that matters. It's not a selfish thing. It doesn't make sense and that only makes matters worse. I know it doesn't make sense but it doesn't matter. That only aggrevates matters. It's maddening.....duh. The things that normally bring you pleasure bring nothing. I wish I had an answer for it. I don't. Nor does anyone else. Depression is a screwy thing. Those that love you tell you that they love you and it doesn't matter. I can't stress this enough bigdummy, please don't deny your friend the love and memory he deserves just because you don't understand why he did what he did. I hope you can find peace with what has happened in your life, it's the only way to continue. Ok, I'm done preaching.