Feeling about suicide

at least he did it right he"s gone we cant always read people knowmatter who good we now them I lost my best car building friend 4 years ago it took half my energy away and the other 1/2 I could give a **** less some days .I never saw it , but it mat have been a seizer I don't know I thought about it 3 years after I broke my back . I just try to treat people better now and be glad what I do have look up your still here to take care of ,mabee he took the easy way out but I don't know his situation sorry to hear