Hard to keep going sometimes

Moparmatt2000, thanks for the info! Sorry to hear about your father having it also. I have asked multiple doctors about having the affected parts removed, but they always shoot it down. They want to try every other avenue first, and the only thing left is the IV meds, like remicade, humira, etc. They bring your immune system down so it stops attacking your body, but then you risk having what would normally be a simple infection kill you because you can't fight it off. The same med would also help the arthritis, because it's my immune system attacking my joints and deteriorating my discs, and causing the inflammation. And making me feel like I have the flu all the time, without the runner nose lol. If it would help my quality of life, then I would have it removed in a heartbeat!

Fishy68, thanks for the prayers! Sorry to hear about your back. Another of people just don't understand pain like that. I know people stare at my dad, and it drives me crazy. They ask why can't he work? If he can mow his grass, or work on a car, or ride a Harley? They don't know how it makes it much worse if you sit and do nothing, nor of the pain you feel when you are done. His neck being stuck forward and hunched over makes him get stuck under cars, and it freaks him out. His bike is easiest for him out of every thing, because it takes the strain from his back from the position of his arms, and he can stand and turn his body to look for traffic at intersections. I never realized the pain would be that bad until it started happening to me. I talk to him about it all the time, he can always tell me exactly what I am feeling. I can definitely understand your pain, and it's comforting in a way to hear from people that understand mine. I also get horrible thumping headaches, starting at my neck, and it feels like if something would crack it would go away. I don't dare try to crack it. I can't, and it just makes it 10x worse.

Thanks everyone for the comments! I have to head to work now. Hope the boss just stays away from me. You guys put me in a better mood, and I hate having that ---- bring it down! Lol