Am I wrong?

I'll suggest that your attitude change is caused by medication.
If I'm wrong... you're not taking any meds.
If I'm right its because I've recognized and learned to live with they changes my meds have made in me.
If all this is new to you.. You probably haven't experienced the worst scenario yet.
When you tell friends and family members "I cant" or "I don't want to", they can take it personally. It can be heartbreaking too.
Good luck