Am I wrong?

Dart_Doctor said
you feel what you feel ink . i enjoy helping members here my brother left cliff left . i told my last so called friend to never call me agin , i have no one close enough to hang with that i call a friend yalls all i got .

Thing is I see to it that I am alone. I do my best to push people away. Remove the wife from the picture and I truly am alone.....and ok with it. Walked away from my family in 02. Both folks passed away...did not attend either funeral. ANd do not feel the least bit "wrong" about it.... These people are Ernie's friends. When I go over there it is more or less because Ernie asked me to go.
The very reason I like the bike so much is it is one of the few times I am truly all alone.....
Hell, just look at the way I live......out of town a ways.....yard fully fenced in, locked gates with dogs roaming....I like being alone....

RedFish said
I'll suggest that your attitude change is caused by medication.
If I'm wrong... you're not taking any meds.
If I'm right its because I've recognized and learned to live with they changes my meds have made in me.
If all this is new to you.. You probably haven't experienced the worst scenario yet.
When you tell friends and family members "I cant" or "I don't want to", they can take it personally. It can be heartbreaking too.
Good luck

No new meds....not in the past year or so. I do want to help these folks....just on my schedule.

My wife will often volunteer me to help people. I asked her to stop doing this the other day. It did indeed bother me a bit....but far less that this obligated feeling I have.