Hard to keep going sometimes

Man, you have alot on your plate. I have a bad back and always will now. Not bad like yours, also depression. Its good to talk/vent here because alot can relate and help. I feel for you to the extent of pain. Sure no one knows exactly how others do but they can come close at times. As for Pot.....I dont do it now but being in the Medical field i know it works for people....Not all. You have to do what you need to and as far as im concerned..........If your not hurting anyone do what you can to be pain free. I wish i could do or say more to help you but i cant, other than thinkin about you and hoping all gets better soon. Keep your chin up and all the best