Hard to keep going sometimes

When your at the bottom, and seems no way out, sometimes you have to dig your own steps toward the top. Seems you started this, and I'm glad. I'm no doctor, but all of us has felt pain and it isn't very fun. The FABO friends can offer support, but none like in person. Along with the steps you've already taken, I would find a Christian church that will pray WITH you (and not just for you). You may have to visit a few, but the church is made up of people from all walks of life. I don't like to say "dump" your fiancé. She may not know how to handle this either, and may actually feel worse than you think. Some people are poor responders to situations. Perhaps church, pastoring, will help her too. "Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen". The absolutely best to you and your family