Hard to keep going sometimes

Hey Metallidart. I just read thru most of the thread, and I really admire you for hanging in there. :prayer: More people than not, might have just thrown their hands up and quit. The only help I can offer is my experience with one of the new auto-immune drugs. I have Psoriasis, which is also an auto-immune disorder. I'm 56, and I've had it since I was about 21 or 22 years old. It never was real bad, and I was always able to manage it on my own with snake oil that all the drug stores sell. Fast forward to 2007. I had a terrible flare up, and had to start seeing a dermatologist. He got it kind of calmed down with Methotrexate, but that stuff was awful. I started doing research online, and learned of a new drug called Stelara that was coming out. I talked to my dermatologist, and he told me about the risks vs rewards of such a medication. Long story short, I've been on Stelara for 2 years now, and it has changed my life. I just have to be diligent about hand washing and avoiding snotty nosed, sneezy people...lol. I also need to clean wounds I get while working with my hands, and keep a band aid on longer then I used to. It's all well worth it to me, cause you'd never look at me and know I have Psoriasis. If there's some type of new drug that may be helpful to you, at least consider it before the lawyers that write the disclaimers scare you away from it. For me personally, the rewards far outweighed the risks. Hope you're doing ok, and best of luck with the SSDI. People like you are exactly who it should help. Take care,
JD