Christmas commercials........ Hate them or love them

The thing is, everybody doesn't have a big happy family to celebrate the holidays with. I lost my grandparents very early in life and I have yet to have any children--which expect for Xmas time, I really don't mind at all, maybe someday it come a time but now isn't it for me.

One needs not to let others get them down. Once I was so depressed, I hated seeing other people that looked happy. That sounds crazy but it happen to me...I was facing surgery the next day and even thou it was just a hernia surgery, I was half scared to death and had not solo to comfort me....I went 250 miles from home to get it done since it seemed better over there and it was cheaper as well. That evening before going to the hospital I got in a very sad, very down mood, the more smiles I seen, the more I got depressed...I almost started flipping out thinking those smiling people were laughing at me..I knew that wasn't true yet I wanted to scream at some people that looked so happy.

Maybe thats why Xmas can get some folks so depressed ? Seeing others who are happy when you are not can be stressful.

I wimped out and went back to my hotel room before I lost it and did something I would had later regret, don't think I would had but then again the more smiles I seen, the worst I was getting inside, so I told myself I better just retreat back to the crib, ha ha

Sorry for the rabbling but I know Xmas can get some folks very depressed and just trying to figured it out, if there is any explanation for it