I know it'll take awhile before you're back in the swing of things. I'd loan you my time machine if I had one. It's been a number of years since I lost my parents but I still find myself trying to avoid doing anything they wouldn't approve of. If they're watching from up above I'd hope they wouldn't think they should have put me in a gunnysack and tossed me in a pond instead of putting up with my shenanigans.