Stop in for a cup of coffee

well, I wasn't going to say anything because it's kinda embarrassing to me, but I have to admit I am freaking out.

Now that Mr. Stan lost his battle with cancer I am really freaking out because I am not really able to enjoy the 4th because last week I was at the doc and he thinks I have abnormal lump in my breast. So I go this week to check it out with another doc.

I was doing fine with it and I didn't want to tell anyone because its a woman problem and its kinda embarrassing and I don't want to bring anyone down. Now with everything, I am freaking out and I am having strange thoughts that I might be joining those who are doing burnouts in the better place.