Buried a friend today :(

I've reduced my dog lot to a pile of materials. Dog house for sale. Deleted most of this post. Decided not to share my postpartum mind games. Peace to all.
I understand, don't give it another thought.
Years of bonding does that to the heart.
9 years later and I get watery when I think too much about it. I lost 2 , sisters and a yr apart to renal failure.