Suicide? Don’t do it, seek help...please!

It is when your depression is so bad that it's the only reasonable thought you have. It has *nothing* to do with pity and everything to do with despair and a feeling everyone would be better off without you.

Seriously. I have Jesus. I have friends. I have family. I have Mopars. Still didn't stop me from trying to jam a six inch knife between my ribs.

I also have a mental illness that is controlled through medication and therapy. There is no cure. My prayer life is strong and my sons are my world. Still didn't stop the attempts and fantasizing.

Maybe instead of castigating you take a moment to learn.

Agree.
The basic instinct of all Gods creations is to survive .
Unless you have and live with this illness. And it is an illness.
It's hard to comprehend what people who have it go thru.
No rational thinking person wants to end there life.
You have walk that road to understand it,, and it's a dark lonely road.
And that's what the OP is saying. Look for the signs in others.

Keep fighting Rob. Last thing any of us want to do is let our children believe
Ending it us the right thing to do.