Inspection of a 904 torqueflite

Now as far as hitting patients with a hammer. Some of them should have had that done a long time ago. Might have woke them up a bit.

If you smoke....for 40 years, still want a cigarette, and you can’t get out of bed because you have heavy copd. Then you want me to drug you up with oxycodone, Ativan, and morphine. It’s not gonna happen. Someone might have hit you with a hammer 20 years prior and gotten you to stop because I deal with that every day I work. They will never be able to get better or breath again like they used to. It only gets worse.....as so many other things.

If you do meth and I can’t get an IV into your arm because your veins are so shot. It might not even matter. Because all you want is out and to either get more meth or your mind is so shot your hallucinating and on your way to the neuro doctors....but your not coming mentally back and your family suffers more than you at that point.......

I can trash bushings....saw a transmission in half.....go get a new one and break that one....then go get another new one.

But a smoker can’t fix that mistake. We all do stupid things. We don’t eat right and have severe hypertension or diabetes or whatever. Most of them won’t change. In the latter part they suffer for it.

For me personally. It has shown me where I can maybe mess up and where I can’t.......and how much I should take seriously about what I’m doing. That’s why I’m not afraid to try. I guess because I see the end ever day and know my own mortality and that failure......is an option.

The things that can be replaced. Not a big deal. The things that can’t. Might have been watched a little more closely.

When I put these in wrong and they don’t work out well. There is some frustration. Nothing however compared to watching someone fall apart and there is literally nothing I can do for them. It’s a very hard job.

I guess what I’m trying to say that some things are important and some aren’t.