I must step away from FABO for a while
First let me say I am so sorry for your loss. Please accept my sincere condolences. You well know, FABO people are family. We will do or best to help our family.
I wish I could be better at helping people in this type of time of need, but you know, what I do say, is with the best intentions.
You and I are not kids, we have seen alot but nothing is harder than losing your beloved wife of so many years, and then finding your self in a true and real deep depression. Like mentioned, exercise is such a good medicine for mind and body. No doubt your appetite has gone South (or maybe North), but good nutrition is part of healing.
What gives me strength are the wonderful memories I have of lost loved ones. Be it famly, friends, or beloved animals. No one can take that away.
I have relationship with My Heavenly Father. It heals. If you do not, might I suggest reach out. God does not put obstacles or hearthache in front of us, He gives us the strength to go on and deal with life. Nuff said.
Professional help sometimes is a must. We can not slways heal ourselves. After two wars my dad had a nervous breakdown, I was like 8 or 9. He healed. He had been though, lets just say, a lot. He had professional help. There is way better help today.
Please never, never hesitate to call me if you just need someone to talk to. I admit i am half deff but I will give you my fullest attention. Just message me for a number if needed.
God Bless.