Opioids....the nightmare continues...

Just need to rant...
Have been taking Oxycontin ER and Oxycodone for over a decade. Had a Spinal Cord Stimulator and a Vertiflex implanted...the pain I was feeling from busting my *** at the USPS for 20 years, at least in my lower back is gone.
Oxy...aka "Hill Billy ******"...My insurance company requires me to get an annual "prior auth". With this months script my time was up. Went to pick up my meds, pharmacy told me nope, it's prior auth season again. Katie, the woman at my docs office that deals with this sort of stuff spent 6 hours this week, including a solid 75 minutes today, arguing with my insurance company. They would not approve it. I am down to my last 2 days worth of pills...so needed to do something. Dropped by my docs office, without an appointment, hoping they could see me. My doc told me that they had exhausted every avenue in getting my script approved.
He also told me that the reason the insurance company was sticking to...the fact that people are crushing the Oxycontin ER tabs and snorting them, often times ODing. I knew this was a thing, hell, I lost a co-worker to this. They did approve a script for Xtampza. If you google it Oxycodone pops up. However, it is in a capsule mixed with a few different thing so that the opiate-induced euphoria does not happen if someone were to empty the capsule and try to snort the contents. Co-pay, using the readily available discount card from the manufactures web site was $100. I was paying $130 a month for the Oxycontin ER. With the way the price of fuel is climbing the extra $30 will be going in my fuel tank but that is a whole different problem....
I am in the process of reducing my daily dosage of these poisons. My doc does not think I will be able to get all the way off of them. I am determined to. Ever since seeing the Pain clinic my long term goal was to get off of the oral meds and have a pain pump put in...if need be.
I am tired of dealing with the "Pain Contract". Tired of pissing in a cup damn near every other month. Tired of the fog that these drugs cause.
All you folks that have jobs that require repetitive motion...or perhaps being hunched over a fender all day...you may want to reconsider what you do for a living. Dealing with this crap is no fun. Hurting to the point that you can't walk 200' to open the gate on your driveway sucks. I feel like a frigging child...always whining about this crap.....but sadly it has pretty much consumed my existence.