When to give up?

If FABO is a place for you be be truthful and say what you need to say then keep doing it. Sometimes typing it out can be a relief in itself. It is nice to see that you recognize how hard this can be for the people near you and hopefully they can see how hard you try to manage it. I wish you the best. Vent away my friend, some of us are listening even if you don’t know it.