Thursday a week ago I lost one of my kitty cats

Two weekends ago my little Propane showed signs that something was wrong so I called my local Vet and they couldn’t see him for a week. Wednesday night I was hand feeling him and Thursday I called an emergency Vet hospital 35 miles from me and they said I could bring him in at 3:30. By they I was squinting water into his mouth to give him some fluids. By now he was just laying around and the Vet checked him out. He was very dehydrated and had a low temperature and said they should do blood work. 30 minutes later they came back and said his white blood cell count was terrible. She said he either has a bad trama, possibly a fall or Cancer. She said he could be sent out for further testing and kemo if necessary. He was in bad, very bad shape so I asked if he was in bad pain and she said absolutely. I couldn’t have him living like that so I had him put to sleep. They prepping him and I held him privately for 30 minutes they they did the procedure while I held him. I had him cremated and I will probably get his ashes next week. I will spread him on the hillside outside where he hung out till I brought him in February 2017. 10 days later and it still hurts. My other three cats have helped a lot getting past this. I love and miss you little buddy. C5242C3A-BA62-4AC5-A819-5B1E119159F0.jpegD536D8E5-F1DA-4905-BB36-73F99F042AD8.jpeg32925A39-785D-4EEA-B4E0-3D85FD53C018.jpegEBE73B6D-BC2B-439C-A8BD-A58544C6D72A.jpeg65DB7C0D-A5A3-475F-86EF-668F07EBCF30.jpeg92CBC90D-6666-44C4-9BB4-9E631BAAB1BA.jpegB4AF1208-6828-414C-AADA-785EFFBA58CE.jpeg331B77AD-B843-4C0B-9EF5-FA6D095B647D.jpeg