A question and an ask SBM 318

i got a 19 yr old son thats special needs and a 17 yr old daughter thats adhd and bi polar, a older brother that had 3 strokes all on my own single parent and try to be a truck driver as much as i can and i do wounder if ill ever get my "give a damn" back as well!! any ways good luck with it all!!
I feel for you brother. It ain't easy. Then people who have no clue tend to judge when someone dealing with this type of **** self medicates.