I'm loseing hope!!

It gets better bird. You're doing the right thing. Sorry to hear about your health and I apologize if my first response started rough but that's how I get through life. I have to pull up my dumb *** by the boot straps. I have a picture of my grandmother and grandfather taken at their wedding in a freaking stone ridden 180 acre farm plot in northern wisconsin. This was 1907.

When I feel like life is kickin' my *** I just look at that picture and realize how lucky I am.

BTW, I found my duster on craigslist too!