I'm loseing hope!!
Dude,
I have followed this thread and noticed that all the responses are valid and caring. Bunch of good guys here, many of whom have had very difficult times. Do your health problems prevent you from working? Do they prevent you from getting a better paying job? Improve your situation?
Sometimes you just have to grab your self by the collar and slap the **** out of yourself. The simplest expenses add up over time.
I used to buy lunch at a deli. That ended when I needed money. I just made my own at home and "brown-bagged it." Buying alcohol and/or other mind-altering substances is a huge expense. Forget about it. Same with going out to dinner. There will be plenty of time for this stuff after you have made your situation more stable.
Priorities! When I was working a full-time job and going to school full-time, I made sure that I did not have a girlfriend full-time. That is a big expense! That is not to say that I did not enjoy the company of the opposite sex, it is simply that I set economic priorities.
Good luck to you. Please follow the advise that you have seen here in this thread. There is nothing I hate doing more than re-inventing the wheel. Too painful...