A Sad Day...
I miss both my parents. I know for a fact that they wouldn't want me to grieve forever though. I used to call my Mom almost every Monday morning just to shoot the breeze with her and it took quite some time to not pick up the phone and realize that no one would pick up if I called. It's the end of an era for my whole family. We realized that we now have only each other and this has actually drawn us closer together than ever, so something good has come forth from the loss.
KP, I imagine that your Mother is looking out for you and wants you to be happy no matter what. Try to take some comfort in that and keep on keepin' on. Things will get better. :)