Happy New Year Matt. !
Happy new year to you and Theresa. Let's all hope that 2024 shapes up better than 2023Happy New Year Matt. !
Living on higher ground can many times be a blessing!Happy new year to you and Theresa. Let's all hope that 2024 shapes up better than 2023
But it's cold up here !!!Living on higher ground can many times be a blessing!
Yea compared to S. Fl.! Hey a little cold air and some snow is good for you! You will appreciate it when spring comes!!But it's cold up here !!!
I agree!I am wanting to start back up with this project at some point in the near future, but life is still getting in the way of that currently. I hope the mods dont truncate this thread, as theres a lot of fab work here on these pages that other people can follow/copy on their own projects. As an aircraft sheetmetal fabricator, I try to get this stuff right enough that it appears factory but is a bit above and beyond. I have used ideas from here too and incorporated them into this build. The crossmember mod for the 42RH for example. I used many different what I felt were the best ideas from different people to make what I felt was the best design to use. If possible, I would like this thread to stay open in its entirety so other folks can follow the trail I left for them.
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Matt
You keep on keepin on Matt.I am wanting to start back up with this project at some point in the near future, but life is still getting in the way of that currently. I hope the mods dont truncate this thread, as theres a lot of fab work here on these pages that other people can follow/copy on their own projects. As an aircraft sheetmetal fabricator, I try to get this stuff right enough that it appears factory but is a bit above and beyond. I have used ideas from here too and incorporated them into this build. The crossmember mod for the 42RH for example. I used many different what I felt were the best ideas from different people to make what I felt was the best design to use. If possible, I would like this thread to stay open in its entirety so other folks can follow the trail I left for them.
Thanks
Matt
Interesting.......I always thought that was what was considered being in a rut. I feel the same way.....No happy place anymore. Thought I was just in a rut.I did a bit of research on mental health lately. All the boxes check off for what's referred to as "functional freeze". Yes apparently that is a real thing. On the surface everything appears normal to everybody around me. I go to work, am punctual, and function, but underneath I am mentally frozen. Nothing brings any enjoyment. **** that want to get done at home, does not, and piles up. That just drives depression further. Every so often I push myself to get stuff done I want. Often times it gets half done, I find no enjoyment in it and I say **** it.
I work 8 days to get 6 days off. Most would love that schedule, but I dread it. The 6 days off I am or seem catatonic. I do the stuff that has to get done to "function" pay bills, maintenance on my house, daily drivers etc. The rest of the time I surf the net on my phone as an escape. Then I dread the 8 days on shift since I am like an adult babysitter to 9 people. Anything that screws up on my watch I have to unFuck.
That's functional freeze apparently. You function on the surface and everybody thinks you got it really going on, got your **** together, but underneath it, you see your life speeding along to the end, and you cannot seem to be able jump back in and at least try to enjoy the ride, or have the wherewithal to even take care of your physical self. Wife told me I have a choice to be miserable or not. After that comment I just dont talk to her about it. I smile, and put on my mask i use for her so she thinks that its all ok.
I get that most people dont get it. On the surface I seem to have a successful life. Lots of people dont have what I do. It's not about things though. It's about being genuinely happy in your life.
Matt
Heres the back story to all this. Most of this has to do with one of my children. The last 10 years have been rough. She has bad mental health issues. Now at 18 years old, my 3 month old grand baby is living in our home temporarily the last 2 months pending CPS. CPS has been in and out of our lives over the last 10 years in regards to her. The amount of broken **** in our home, and broken car windshields is epic. She even stole and wrecked my wifes new Impala twice. I had her arrested for that.^^ I had an ex wife years ago, that caused me to be like that! If I was not working, I was depressed. I changed wives, cured. Sad to say, but was the truth.
I dunno about guts to share what I'm going through, more like I'm numb to it all by now, and honestly dont care who knows what anymore. I'm too old for this ****.It takes guts to share your feelings and expose yourself. We took nights for 2 years caring for for our sons twins. He was 24 she was 34 both working nights. My wife would leave in tears as we drove home. All I want to do is be a grandparent. Sounds so familiar. In our case the girls are soon to be 18 and the oldest of our 10 grandchildren. It worked out thank God. He was the solid person in their lives. My inside person was telling me yesterday that she had her daughter arrested for stealing and she was pregnant and on ******. She was able to get her over the hump but still blames her mom for ruining her life. I hope one day she will acknowledge the struggles that a single mom went through to try and get her functioning in life. Unfortunately, some kids just don’t get it. You can only do so much.